DISCLAIMER: This is a dream story. Any references to people non or unknown is simply from my dream journey. The characters Isha and Ronit are from the movie "Yaadein". The roles they play in this dream, have nothing to do with this movie, nor does this dream have anything to do with any event that happened on this train. It is all a dream, that I took the time to research before I published it because I knew absolutely nothing about this train, women's education in India, etc., etc. There are links in this blog to the references that are made in the dream for the purpose of authenticity. My research surely lead me to some interesting discoveries. Please, I don't know why I had this dream, except to say it is an opportunity for me to use my imagination and write another dream story. Thanks for reading this. Nana Baakan
It is the late
spring and we are traveling for several days on this train. (1) There are several
young ladies, just finishing Higher Secondary Private School (2). It's been a long year and everyone is excited about going on to the University.
We are especially happy to be one of the few all girls private schools in all of
India! (3)
This trip is a very special one of all of us. The young ladies have all found their (4) rooms, two are bunking together in each room.
The aisle are more like wide hallways rather than the usually cramped aisle of the trains we most often use. But this is a special trip, a guided tour to some historical sites that we have rarely seen if ever. School is a priority, and we have the cooperation of the parents of each of our students to maintain focus on education while leaving entertainment and touring to our more leisure time, after our educational experience in late spring.
We have just
finished dinner, our first night on the train and are about to retire to our
rooms, when a shrill cry is heard from down the hall.
I quickly run to the
room to find out what is the cause of the commotion.
"Ma'am!!!! (5)
Please help, please help. It is very serious. I think I am going to die, and
she is already dead! Please help me!!!!"
She shows me her
wrists, both of them have been slit. She is bleeding profusely, I am so caught
off guard I don't know where to begin or what to do. On the other bed lies
another girl, face down, mouth and eyes open. Her sheets are covered with blood
and her arms, crossed under her head all also covered in blood. She is dead.
I stand, immobile,
not knowing whether to run and get help, or simply attempt to stop her
bleeding, though I am certain it is too late. Her major artery has been
severed, she could barely scream loud enough above the roar of the train for me
to hear her. Pity, this marvelous train, this beautiful train, while it
conveniently muffles the sounds from the outside, it also stills the sound from
traveling inside. You would not know what was happening in the cabin next to
you it is so sound proof.
In only a few
moments she slumps down on her bed.
I run into the
hallway to get help.
There is virtually
no security on this train, not a single person who could solve this mystery.
Not a single soul who can stop this train and investigate these two murders. It
could quite easily be called a double suicide, the way young people carry on these
days. But I am certain it was murder, I just have no idea who did it. There is
no sign and it seems these two young ladies were hoping to hide this mishap and
waited too long to call for help. Meanwhile the perpetrator is still aboard
this train, and we have no clue where he could possibly be.
It could be anyone.
There are only a few male passengers and the staff on this train are all male.
Who could we approach? If we suspiciously look towards one of the passengers,
we may suffer severe embarrassment as they may not be guilty at all. If we approach
any of the staff members, we could bring the entire Luxury Train industry of
India, into chaos and utter financial calamity. If we ignore this situation and
bring it to no one's attention, we risk having another incident like this
happening marring the reputation of the Boarding School. And, we have 24 hours
before our next stop. Either way we respond to this tragedy, it will be most
horrendous.
Realizing that I can do nothing at this time. I close the door of their cabin and ask the staff to "Please do not disturb them. They are fine and need no assistance." I go to my cabin and wait.
Realizing that I can do nothing at this time. I close the door of their cabin and ask the staff to "Please do not disturb them. They are fine and need no assistance." I go to my cabin and wait.
In a short while
Isha (6) enters
my cabin. She is excited and fluttering all around, with no idea of what has
just taken place.
"Ma'am Ayanna,
Ma'am Ayanna, I have met the most incredible young man! He is handsome, smart,
very well dressed, and seems to be from a well to do family!"
Her words ring in my
ears but I can barely hear what she is saying. I busy myself, tidying up my
bed.
"Really, Isha.
How did you happen to meet such a fine gentleman?" I ask half interested.
"I met him,
just down the hall here. His cabin is just a few cabins down from mine! I want
to talk with him and get to know him, Ma'am. I am 18 years old now, I am old
enough to talk to men, aren't I? Besides, I am going off to the University in a
few months, so surely I am old enough to talk to this fine young man, isn't
that correct Ma'am?"
"Well, I guess
since we are all here for the next 24 hours, we may as well make the best of
it. Sure, you certainly are old enough, Isha. And how old is he? May I
ask?"
"Um, well,
Ma'am, he is 26 years old. But don't worry, I am old enough to talk to someone
that much older than I. Besides, I am feeling really sad about leaving our
school and so, I will have someone to talk to to help me feel better about it,
Ma'am."
"It seems to
me, that you really don't want to talk about leaving school anyway. You seem to
need a distraction so you won't have to talk about leaving school at all, my
dear, Isha."
"Humph, why is
it that you know me so well, Ma'am. Why is that?"
"Well I have
been your teacher at our private boarding school for 3 years now. I study all
my students, and since you are one of my most active, adventurous students, it
would only seem proper that I would study you quite closely. Besides, you are as
they would call you in the West, a Gemini. And we know that Gemini's need some
sort of distraction so they won't get bored, thinking about the past,
right?"
"Yes, Ma'am, I
guess you are right about that. But I would hardly call him a distraction. Far
from that, I would say."
"And so my
dear, what shall we call him?
"Well, I guess
you can trot along and go get to know your new friend a little better."
"Oh but I must
freshen up a bit." Isha says and runs across the hall to her cabin, which
she happens to be staying in alone as we are one short of the young ladies who
signed up for our trip.
Not long after this
time, Isha runs down the hall to talk with her new friend. (8)
"Ronit, I am so happy. My teacher said it would be okay for me to talk with you, and spend some time with you. Well, she didn't exactly say spend time with you, that is what I would like to do. We have 24 more hours on this dreadful train, it would be wonderful to break up the monotony and spend time with you. Do you mind, I surely hope you do not mind."
"No, I don't
mind. Just as long as we can keep our talks minimal. That is, nothing too
personal. I do not like things to be too personal with me and people I
meet."
"Oh, that's
fine, we can just talk and be friendly, in a light way, an easy way. You know,
I have no expectations and you have no expectations. Besides, we have just met,
so how personal can we get in just a few hours."
Ronit responds,
"We can get very personal in just a few hours. Believe me, I know what I
am talking about and it has happened so many times in my past, that I would
rather warn a new friend of just how dangerous it can be to get close to
me."
"Dangerous,
dangerous? Don't be silly. How can it be dangerous to simply have a small chat
with such a fine young man as yourself. What, do you mean that I am too young
to talk to you because you are 26? No way, I am way more mature than most girls my age. I have
seen the world, traveled about and been to many places most girls my age have
merely dreamed about. My family is quite wealthy and all summer they assure me
of the finest and best and wonderful places that I can be taken. In fact, they
bring home the travel guide so that I can choose my favorite places or even
some new places if I would like to try something new. So you see, you do not
have to worry about my age at all. If that is what you were worried
about."
"Please, my
dear, your age is of no concern to me. In fact, I have been with young ladies
your age, younger and older. Well not too much younger, but certainly your age.
18 years of age is my favorite. Young ladies are a lot less jaded at that age. I
appreciate that. But like I said before, we cannot get too personal, as it may
prove to be quite dangerous for you."
"Dangerous for
me???" Isha laughs haughtily at Ronit, it's incredulous to her that he
would even consider that he could be dangerous to her in any way. Besides, it's
simple conversation, nothing more. She shakes her head at him as if to dismiss his
idea. How ludicrous, she thought to herself.
"So, have you
had your evening tea yet?" Isha asks.
"No, not yet, I
have been sitting here for some time, thinking and looking out of the
window."
"Ha, that's
hardly a view out that porthole. When they made these trains they
certainly hadn't planned on us spending time looking out the window like we
would on a lower class train. That's why they made them so small, you would
rather look around at these luxurious surroundings, take notes and invite your
friends and family to travel with you the next time if they haven't
already."
Isha certainly loves
to talk, but in her naiveté she doesn't realize that he is barely listening to
her and is attempting to keep his gaze away from her eyes.
She is absolutely
beautiful to him. Her smile, her hair, her eyes, the softness of her hands, the
dimple in her chin, so barely perceivable. Even her self assuredness is so
very, very attractive. And that is where the danger lies. He feels himself
being drawn to her. This has never turned out well in the past, and there is
simply no reason why this time should be any different.
"My, you are
deep in thought, right now. Let's go to your cabin and have that cup of tea.
I've been waiting for the evening tea, haven't you been waiting as well?"
"Yes, I have,
but I do not think having it in my cabin is such a great idea."
"Why not? We
have already stated what our parameters will be, so we will simply sip tea and
chit chat, nothing too deep and certainly nothing to personal."
Her phrases fall
from her lips like chimes from a bell. They ring and sing and swirl around her
mouth like a wind strung summer rain. They stick to him, they hang on him, they
pull him in and they weaken him. Ronit thinks to himself, "I do not know if I am
strong enough to keep this from becoming dangerous."
"I really do
not think having tea in my cabin is a good idea, Isha. Please understand. I
mean you no disrespect, I am simply stating what I know to be true."
"Nonsense,
there is nothing at all to worry about, and certainly no danger. What could
happen here on this train? We are in the public.. What could possibly go wrong?
Come, let's have tea!!!"
Isha takes a hold of
Ronit's hand and pulls him down the hallway towards his cabin that is just a
few doors away from hers. She eyes her cabin invitingly, then thinks better of
it, too close to Ma'am Ayanna.
It's as if some
unseen force has taken hold of his body and he seems to find himself floating
down the hall to his cabin, being lead by this fairy goddess who has no idea of
the danger that may befall her. I must control my passion, he thinks to
himself, that is the only way to keep her safe.
They enter his cabin
and Isha quickly seats herself on his lounge chair.
"Will you be
calling for tea soon, Ronit? We don't want to wait to long before the tea hour
is over."
"Yes," he
responds as if being awakened from a deep sleep journey. "Yes, I will call
right now."
Isha watches his
body as it moves towards the bedside table. His muscles flex through his jacket
as he picks up the phone. She quietly gasps to herself at seeing his full
figure that was so hidden behind the table in the lounge. She feels a familiar
trembling in her soul and her mouth waters. She thinks to herself, how can this
be dangerous at all, he is magnificently beautiful, where is the danger?
The tea comes
shortly after the call is made. By now, Ronit is sitting on the side of the
bed, looking down at his fingers as he rubs them up and down his well
sculptured thighs. He appears a bit nervous to Isha, but she quickly dismisses
that as well.
"Thank
you", she says to the server and "Thank you, Ronit. Mmmmm, this tea is
quite wonderful, indeed."
Isha sips her tea.
He watches her delicate hands hold the cup like a flower. Her breath wisps the
steam from the cup of tea in his direction. It is like a spell and he can feel
it. I MUST CONTROL MY PASSION, he repeats to himself like a mantra, over and over
again as he watches her. This is something a bit different than all the others.
This time while he is handling the single edge blade in his pocket, he is also
wishing she would leave. How is this so? This is a golden opportunity for him
to let his passions ride on the tide of love making. She is obviously sending
him the message that she wants to. Why do I feel I must stop myself?
Ronit questions himself over and over again.
Ronit questions himself over and over again.
Isha stands up
abruptly, this startles Ronit out of his own thoughts and fantasies.
"What are you
doing? What's in your pocket?" She asks inquisitively.
"Why are you
examining me, Isha? Don't you find your tea satisfactory?"
"Yes, quite,
but I am also wondering what is on your mind. Oh, forgive me, we must keep this
from getting personal, and so even if I find you to be one of the most
attractive men I have ever laid my eyes on,
I must maintain, nothing personal, nothing at all, correct?"
"Correct, and
it would be to your best advantage to remember that.
It is getting late,
I think that you may want to go off to your cabin to get some rest, yes?"
"No." She
responds with the definiteness of a sledge hammer, "No, not at all, I
have been compliant, I have said nothing personal to you, except to ask what
you were thinking, which you refused to divulge, I have sat quietly sipping my
tea, and now you want to trot me along to my cabin!!! I see... I see...."
She speaks with
hurtfulness in her voice. Ronit didn't mean to hurt her, in fact he surely does
not want to hurt her. He wants to keep her safe, safe from him.
Isha gets up and
walks past him towards the door. He follows close behind and before he could
catch himself his arms wrap around her waste and pull her back towards him. He
then begins to caress her nipples through her clothing. They were erect and
waiting as the warmth of his body close to her, quickly excited her in every
way. Isha sighs aloud.
Ronit cries out. "Oh dear, I
mustn't, I mustn't!"
Isha turns around
and faces him.
"You mustn't
what…???? What are you talking about??? What mustn't you do? Frankly, you
haven't done anything!"
"Yes, I
have!" Ronit retorted.
"No you haven't
and if you have, well I certainly didn't experience it. What are you talking
about, Ronit?"
"Isha, you
simply have no idea who I am and what I am capable of."
"Really, so
should I run out of here, immediately?? Or are you going to be man enough to
tell me what is going on with you? You are the one who has said keep the
personal out, you are the one who has warned, how dangerous it could be, and
yet, you are holding me in your arms!!! Now explain that!!! I want you to tell
me, now!" Isha stubbornly insisted.
"I
can't.."
"Well, if you
don't I am leaving. We can just PRETEND that nothing personal happened here.
That we are not mutually attracted to each other, and that I can just go to my
cabin and forget about you!!! Fine, I will do just that. Release me!"
"No",
Ronit whispers, "I can't."
"And what does
that mean, you can't, what's stopping you? And I thought I was the younger one
in this equation. Looks to me like you are being a very young boy right
now.!"
"Isha, listen
to me, look at me, and listen……. Have you noticed
that I have had my hand in my pocket much of the time?
"Yes, I have
been noticing a lot of things about you."
"Would you like
to know what that is?"
"Sure, as long
as it's not personal." Isha responds with a tinge of sarcasm in her voice.
Ronit pulls it out,
and Isha can barely see it as it is nestled between his middle finger and his
ring finger.
"What is it,
Ronit. Stop playing little boy games."
"It's a
blade" Ronit whispers as he looks down at his hand.
"If I make love
to you, I will have to cut you, and you will bleed to death."
Isha could barely
contain her laughter. That was the most absurd thing she had ever heard. But
when she looked into his eyes she immediately became quite sober.
"Ronit, are you
kidding me, or are you serious?"
"Isha, I am
dead serious. I will have to kill you. I will cut your wrists and leave you
there to die and no one, will ever know how it happened or why."
"Come on,
Ronit, you can't be serious, you would actually make love to me, cut my wrists
and leave me there to die??? Preposterous!!!"
Meanwhile Isha is beginning to take this man seriously, she really doesn't know him or what his potential might be, and yet she feels the passion, she wants to make love with him, but if he is really serious????
Meanwhile Isha is beginning to take this man seriously, she really doesn't know him or what his potential might be, and yet she feels the passion, she wants to make love with him, but if he is really serious????
"Come on,
Ronit, be truthful, you would not do that would you?"
"No, I would
not, and I am going to tell you why. Because I will not make love with you. I
will not enter you. Whenever I enter a woman something goes off inside of me
and I am compelled to cut her wrists. I did that already, two times today. They
didn't know, they invited me in, they seduced me, I gave them both what they
asked for and then one by one, I cut them. At first they could not believe they
were cut. They felt it was all part of the game we were playing and the way
that I cut, could barely be felt. But when the bleeding would not stop, they
quickly realized what had happened. I left their room went to mine, freshened
up and sat in the lounge.
Did you not hear
your sister's screams?"
"No Ronit, I
did not, and I don't believe you. And I know you want to because look at
you." Isha looks down at his erection. It is piercing through his pants.
"You want to
and you want me…. So come on, let's do this, let's do this now." Isha
says, as she eyes the blade and thinks of strategies to get that blade out of
his hand. He told her, and that gives her opportunity to retrieve it by
averting his attention enough time.
"Come on,
Ronit." Isha gently nudges him back onto the bed and straddles him. She
rubs herself across his erection, while attempting to pry the blade from his
fingers. She has no luck. He pushes her away.
"I can't do
this, if I enter you, you will have to die. That is the commandment. There is
no way around it. I must kill you, Isha. Please don't make me do this. I am a
man, my resistance is very low. I am still high from my last encounter just a
few hours ago. I do not want to kill you."
This is quite
baffling to Isha, but now she must create a strategy to get what she wants and
also to get him to the authorities. How can she do this??
She stands up. She
grabs his hands and pulls him upright and then to the floor. She can feel the
blade, securely tucked between his fingers. She is deliriously thinking of ways
to pry it out of his hand. But how?? She starts to kiss him, gently at first,
then more and more passionately. His arms are around her and he is tightly
holding on to the blade.
Isha decides on a new strategy, she lowers herself towards his erection, unbuttons his pants, pulls down his zipper and reaches in to pull out the most magnificently sculptured penis she has ever seen in her whole life. She gently begins to suck his penis like a luscious long candy on a stick. Back and forth, up and down, gently squeezing it and letting it go. He is going deeper and deeper into orgasmic revelry.
Isha decides on a new strategy, she lowers herself towards his erection, unbuttons his pants, pulls down his zipper and reaches in to pull out the most magnificently sculptured penis she has ever seen in her whole life. She gently begins to suck his penis like a luscious long candy on a stick. Back and forth, up and down, gently squeezing it and letting it go. He is going deeper and deeper into orgasmic revelry.
"Isha" he
whispers, his voice weakened his legs wobbling, "Please stop. You are
arousing my passion. You are going to make me climax, and if I do,
well….."
"You can't kill
me, cause you haven't entered me, right? I am safe and you can put the blade
down, right? So let me do this.. Let me bring you to climax, let……… me…….
Pleasure……… you…………" she says as she
continues to suck his penis like a luscious long candy on a stick. He climaxes.
"See,"
Isha whispers, "that wasn't so bad."
Ronit slumps to the floor. His breathing has become quite heavy even strained, but he has not released the blade.
Ronit slumps to the floor. His breathing has become quite heavy even strained, but he has not released the blade.
"Isha, you just
don't understand. I don't want to kill you. Of all the women I have done that
to, you are the only one, whom I truly care for. There is something about you
that holds me back from wanting it, desiring it. But I am not strong enough to
prevent it. Please understand…. That is the danger. It is not the climax, it
has never been. It is entering that dark, warm, moist place of extreme pleasure
that arouses my passions to crescendo into a death knell. When I feel that,
someone must die. It's the passion. That is what it was with the others. I feel
it for you, but I feel something different this time, I don't want you to
die."
Isha is thinking
really hard about this. If he does not kill her, she will know what he has done
and be obliged to report him to the authorities. If she reports him to the
authorities she will risk ever having him enter her, which she wanted more than
ever now, after tasting it. She is wondering… what shall she do. Turn him over
now, or make one more attempt at getting that blade and getting what she wanted
from him.
"Ronit, let's
go to my cabin. Let's relax there. Maybe leaving here will help you feel
better. Maybe we can help you sort some things out."
Ronit agrees, but he
never releases the blade, instead he places it back in his pocket, and pats his
pocket as if to say, just in case.
When they arrive at
her cabin, which is only a few doors down the hall, she wraps her arms around
Ronit's neck and kisses him passionately. He gently rubs her rear and slowly pulls her dress up. Isha is not wearing panties. Her skin is soft and smooth, just as he knew it would be.
Isha has two agendas, get the blade and get the sex. Simple, very simple for a Gemini. The door is partially ajar and Ma'am Ayanna peeps out across the hallway to see Isha with her arms around Ronit's neck. Isha quickly fixes her dress and pushes her cabin door close. They continue to kiss and Isha pulls him over towards her bed. She lies back and opens her legs.
Isha has two agendas, get the blade and get the sex. Simple, very simple for a Gemini. The door is partially ajar and Ma'am Ayanna peeps out across the hallway to see Isha with her arms around Ronit's neck. Isha quickly fixes her dress and pushes her cabin door close. They continue to kiss and Isha pulls him over towards her bed. She lies back and opens her legs.
"You can't put
your penis in me but you can put your fingers in me, correct?"
"Yes, that's
correct Isha."
"Then do that,
I need that right now, I am so hot, right now,,,,,,,, I am so wet right now,,,,,,,,, I need
you to give me some satisfaction, please,,,,,,, Ronit,,,,,, Please…….."
Ronit releases the
blade between his fingers and gently pushes one finger into Isha. He pushes his
finger in and pulls it out in an exotic rhythmic fashion, in and out.
"Ooooooh, you are so
wet, so warms, so slippery. Ooohhh." He sighs and continues using his
finger to pleasure her.
She moans,
"Give me more,,,,,,,,,, give me more."
Ronit gives her
more, he pushes two fingers in..... and..... out and pleasures her as she moans louder
and louder.
"Shhhhhhhh, you
are going to wake up the neighbors." He giggles.
"Impossible", she responds in a silken whisper, "this place is sound proof.. Don't stop, please don't stop… It feels so good.............. it
feels so good............"
Ronit has lost
himself he has entered her with exotic rhythmic motions, but he has used his fingers. He doesn't feel
compelled to cut her wrists, he is watching the ecstasy on her face as he
pleasures her with his fingers. He lies on top of her and continues with the gentle exotic rhythm of in and out.
A knock comes to the
door.
"Isha, Isha……
are you in there?"